I have to admit that I am struggling a bit with extremes in regard to eating. I feel like when I am not tracking my food in some way, I am completely out of control, ignoring good choices, and eating straight garbage. However, when I follow a tracking program, whether it is when I was on Weight Watchers, or now with Sparkpeople, I obsess over every single calorie, gram of fat, and carb. It's like I don't want to "waste" my allowance throughout the day, or I fear that I will go over it too early and be hungry later. I don't know what it is, but I get inside my own head and end up not meeting my minimums.
Today I ate 748 calories! That is nowhere near enough, and yet I felt like I was eating all day. Looking back at my food log, it wasn't even 748 calories of healthy food. It wasn't necessarily unhealthy, but it was more bites of everything here and there, with a grand finale of a Smart Ones for dinner! What is wrong with me?? Why is it always one extreme or the other? I either eat to the point of feeling sick if I'm not tracking, or undereat by a landslide, if I am. I need to improve my relationship with food. I think that food and I need couples therapy, big time.
Today I ate 748 calories! That is nowhere near enough, and yet I felt like I was eating all day. Looking back at my food log, it wasn't even 748 calories of healthy food. It wasn't necessarily unhealthy, but it was more bites of everything here and there, with a grand finale of a Smart Ones for dinner! What is wrong with me?? Why is it always one extreme or the other? I either eat to the point of feeling sick if I'm not tracking, or undereat by a landslide, if I am. I need to improve my relationship with food. I think that food and I need couples therapy, big time.
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